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On a high line, on a high line

It’s been a long week. Various and assorted disasters awaited me at work (a simultaneous water leak AND gas leak in the same place! Hurrah!) and frankly I couldn’t wait for the weekend to get here, since it’s the first weekend in three, maybe four weeks that I’ve actually been home.

I’ve been futzing around with the cabochons I got online, using the Jewel-It glue, which really seems to create a good bond; I’ve tried prying off the things I’ve glued once everything has set, and I haven’t been able to move them, so that’s good! I would recommend using that glue, then. And I’ve been busy:

I’ve worn the top ring around, it’s quite nice, and I love the color. I just glued the two little white roses this morning – they will be earrings, but they need a day to set. And I haven’t decided what I will do with the large pendant with the ivory cabochon. It’s very nice, just not sure what I will incorporate with it. I’m definitely interested in keeping this going, I will just have to find more filigrees to glue stuff to. I got a few things at U Bead It last weekend (the oval containers you see in the top ring that the cab is set in).

I stopped at Michael’s sometime during the week and saw to my annoyance (heh) that they had a load of new things, including a new display showcasing turquoise, which is just my total weakness and I wound up getting some dangles – just turquoise enamel on metal parts, but there were some other nice actual rock pieces that I will snatch up when everything is on sale, as it inevitably will be. I made these earrings with some of the dangles:

These earrings are actually completely from Michael’s, so you can see what kind of cool stuff you can make from supplies purchased at big box stores. I already had the earring wires (my favorite – they are the “perfect” wires from the general findings section at Michael’s, I rarely have a problem with them falling out of my ears) the chandelier components, and the jump rings. I debated hanging something from the middle of the chandelier but liked how they looked bare more so I left it alone.

So today I don’t have much going on – I was going to go to Winco, but honestly I just want to stay home and veg, since I haven’t been able to do that in weeks. I might go make some rice and have chili beans and rice for an early lunch. That sounds really pretty delicious, actually.

Next weekend is STITCHES WEST and I am very stoked. I have been going steadily to this convention since 2005 (I missed in 2006 as I had just started working for Xerox in San Antonio – the year before I cut classes for two days and flew out for it, haha) and I’m excited for this year for no other reason than: I HAVEN’T BOUGHT YARN IN LIKE FOREVER WAITING FOR THIS DAY. Aside from a random Knit Picks order a few months ago and some sweet sweet Christmas yarn, I have been very good about holding off. In fact, I was a block away from Rumplestiltskin in Sac last weekend (at Waffle Square, enjoying a Bacon Waffle) and I didn’t go in. That’s hardcore, my peeps.

(I did, however, make Margie go to Bead Fetish downtown, hahaha.)

Anyway, so I am trying to finish my Brandywine shawl before I go – hopefully I will make good progress this weekend working on it. I need to finish it by Tuesday or Wednesday so I can block it. It’s about 2/3-3/4 done. I worked on it a lot last night while watching Fringe and Supernatural.

And with that, my rice maker is calling me…

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2010: The Terrible Horrible No-Good Very Bad Year

I keep seeing all these posts on other blogs reflecting about 2010 and how awesome it was, and I just can’t bring myself to do the same about the worst year of my life. I mean, the constant cosmic bitchslapping I was given has turned me into a twitchy emotional wreck. I’m so glad that it’s 2011 and I can turn the page on last year’s truly awful circumstances. I have never felt – and still feel – so alone and adrift as I feel now. It’s amazing how a combination of things – getting laid off, turning 30, friends getting married and engaged and pregnant just totally shattered me. I’m not one who openly talks about my feelings (because a lot of times I get the impression people don’t think my feelings are valid, to put it bluntly) but in general, I feel very fragile right now. The new year gives me hope, though – there is always that possibility of new beginnings and new experiences to be had. I just need to make my own path and stop letting these feelings of total inadequacy and being the constant goddamn third or fifth wheel in life get me down.

Last year wasn’t all bad though: here is a collage I made of some of the things I made or did last year that I don’t feel like sticking my head in an oven over.

Look at all that awesome stuff! I am a great knitter and a great jewelry designer. If you’re good at something, own it. I’m also awesome at baking ridiculous cakes.

So, in 2011 I want to try to feel happy, instead of the unsettled feeling of, well, despair, actually, that pretty much summed up last year.

I have some goals in mind so 2011 doesn’t suck monkey balls like last year so colorfully did.

  1. Go to Disneyland with Abby. We talked about going in April, and I think that would be really fun and something to look forward to. Abby’s never been to California Disney, so I also look forward to subjecting her to the Tower of Terror, aka Best Ride Ever.
  2. Buy a new car. I haven’t checked in awhile but I think I can still get a bank draft from my bank, and I can use some of last year’s severance and the trade-in on my current car to get the loan down to about $10k which would only be $200/month over five years. One of the things that contributed to my sheer stress last year was a variety of car trouble on top of an emotionally volatile situation. I refuse to deal with car trouble. I just totally refuse. My car had its last strike last week when it failed to start again. No more. Eliminating car problems from my life will eliminate a multitude of stress. And I can finally buy a car that I actually want. A non-GM car, natch. I am looking at the Honda Fit, or possibly even another truck! And one thing I REALLY want to do is get a car in a happy color, like orange or lime green.  I hope to complete this transaction later this spring. (By June or so.)
  3. Continue to knit awesome stuff only for myself or people who really, truly care about it. This is a really short list, and I think I might just be totally selfish next year and knit only for me – or at least only things that bring me pleasure. That means shawls and socks, baby.
  4. Try to knit & bead only from stash. This actually is harder than it seems, but I think I will have to since I decided to buy a new car and need to save $1000 between now and buying a car. I get a pass at Stitches West, Lambtown, and the two bead shows, however. I’m not sure how going to Michael’s and JoAnn’s will fit into this yet, give me a little time to get financially sorted out, hah. I might give myself an allowance or something; that worked pretty good when I was on unemployment.
  5. Eliminate fast food from my diet. Not gonna lie, December was one hell of a clusterfuck when it came to fast food and alcohol.
  6. Go to Winco more often. Like, at least every three weeks. I’ve saved a lot of money by going here to buy my groceries. I still need to shop around at Trader Joe’s and wherever, but I need to start making the effort to go to Winco more often.
  7. Clean out my closet and bureau of clothes I haven’t worn in a long time. Also, start wearing clothes I’m inexplicably saving for “special occasions”. It’s not like I ever go anywhere, so wearing these clothes is not going to hurt anything. *rolls eyes at self*
  8. Bake a cake every week. I’m going to have to, if I want to use all my cake mixes before they expire, hah.
  9. Try to keep my house clean. I’m a messy person with clutter blindness. That’s the truth. I’m trying to work on it.
  10. Expand my repertoire of dishes I can cook really well. I’m in kind of a food rut. Pasta, burritos, that’s about it. The other day I made a great dinner of meatballs and gravy, mashed potatoes, and Brussell sprouts. Relatively healthy and well-rounded. And so tasty! I need to learn to cook chicken and other meats, like a pork roast, and also stop being afraid of my crockpot.

So, those are some worthy, and do-able things. Some other things I’m mulling over include going gluten-free and learning to sew. We’ll see how it goes.

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Warm Wrists, Warm Weather

The weather has been heating up here lately, much to my dismay. If ever there was a person who loathed hot weather, it is me. Where is my delicious fall weather? Why isn’t it in the 50s and 60s? I mean, my air conditioner is on right now. It’s probably about 85 out there. You know how people get seasonal depression in the winter due to lack of sun and vitamin D? I get that in the summer due to too much sun and lack of layers to be worn. I’m definitely a homebody who likes to cozy up under a grey sky. Sheesh.

Anyway, so despite all that, I did go to the reservoir this morning with my dad for some sun and fresh air. So, points for me!

I actually finished a long languishing project:

Yep, those are my King George mitts, knit in Malabrigo sock (love. it.) over a period of something like a year. Oy vey, self! Once I cracked down and remembered what the eff I was doing, it only took about two evening in front of the TV to finish up the second mitt.

They feature a turned hem, the King Charles Brocade lace panel from the Harmony guides lace book, a thumb gusset and 1×1 ribbing on the thumb and finger openings. I was thinking of writing up a pattern for them, but they actually need some work because the panel isn’t quite centered and I had forgotten what I did in the length of time between mitt #1 and mitt #2, and frankly I’m pretty sick of them so I don’t think it’s going to happen.

Aside from being so tired of them, I do like how they turned out – that Malabrigo sock sure is great, as though we all needed any reminding about that one.

Next up: I have Wollmeise in my hot little hands for the very first time!